I have hardly been around the blog scene for long, but had to write this down! The last few entries have probably conveyed an emptiness that I had been feeling for some time, both professionally and personally. But finally Life has heard my cries. we were blessed with a baby girl last week. we adopted her from a reputed agency in Delhi and she is all of 5 and a 1/2 months! She is a delight to have at home. Never before had I thought I would feel what I have felt for the last five days. The joys of parenting, be it waking up at night to make her milk and watching her hungrily drink it in her mother's lap, or her angelic smile every time as she recognises me more and more, to cleaning the potty and changing her diapers... our lives have just trasnformed! In more ways than one.

 

The vaccuum so to say has been filled to the brim. We have also changed emotionally and spiritually in the last one week. One week was all that we got to get ready with all her material needs. there too life has showered us generously with friends, who bought her first set of nappies and sent her a cot, to family who have prayed and are ecstatic at her arrival! But we have changed more on the inside and something that we were not prepared for in the least. Our every breath and reason to live now centres around this bundle of joy! every minute we are worried about what will make her smile and feel secure and safe after her third major change in such a short life. And when we realise how much she already trusts us, especially when she turns to one of us at night in her sleep and clutches onto our hands, we realise what a gift it is, and the responsibility that is associated with it. It has brought a new sense of purpose to our lives, a purpose deeper than mere selfish reasons, one of selfless and indescribable love. Nothing matters more than Mia (thats her pet name)! We have forgotten to see our TV serials, missed most of the newly released movies, and sometimes even forgetting to eat a proper lunch!

 

Maybe my emotions are that much more intense because of my own inner need along with the knowledge of her initial few months and my eagerness to make her feel that much more settled in and feel that much more safe and secure in her new and final home!

 

Hence, as I am on a new plane of divine bliss, all that I feel is love!!!