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    July 16

    WHOSE HOME IS IT ANYWAY?

     

    I live on a campus tucked away in the Aravali Hills. It is almost a 15 km drive away from the heartland of Gurgaon, and one has to drive through a long stretch dotted with farmland and interspersed with villages, till one reaches the Aravali ridge, that incidentally continues into the bordering state of Rajasthan! The forests here are reserved and hence, our campus one of the most eco friendly, to justify its otherwise commercial existence. We have our own generator backup, rainwater harvesting setup, water filtration plant that reuses all non potable water and our residents’ commitment to preserving nature! As a result, we have regular hikes in the forest, surveys of all the birds that one can see here, talks with the local ministries to help us protect the forests and the likes. We are as one would like to claim a harmonious campus in the heart of nature.

     

    As a result of this close proximity, one cannot avoid the coexisting fauna all around us. We have been living on the campus for five years, and the first year we moved in, the greenery around was minimal. Trees had just been planted and hardly had anything but a utilitarian design value. Our landscaping however was not run of the mill, and hence, not smooth lines of hedges and manicured lawns. We had planted trees too, that would grow to give shade, fruit and something we had probably not anticipated then, shelter! In the last two years, with two successful monsoons, the flora had a burst of growth. Trees shot up and branched, flowers bloomed all year round and the campus became greener and cooler. Such is nature, that this immediately made the environment homely for the fauna. More flowers attracted more bees and insects. More bees and insects along with the cooler branches of big trees, attracted more birds. And soon, in an interestingly artificially induced replay of an ecosystem, the monkeys couldn’t be far behind.


    Two years back, we had the wasps housing by our bedroom window. On one hand, we felt safe within the netted windows observing life’s amazing creatures going through their life cycle, and on the other, walking around in the open was becoming hazardous, making me wonder what I was doing in an apiary. Apiary indeed! Every building had a bee hive comprising of millions of aggressive and big honey bees, their live hives weighing at least ten kilos. Small corners on window sills were the domain of the ferocious looking angry yellow wasps. Many a times, a lost soul would wander indoors, making me panic stricken till it found its way back to its nest! Simultaneously we were fortunate to witness the egg-laying phase of a wasp, the sole purpose of them making a nest. It was indeed amazing to see their small fist sized hives laden with white eggs, validating the miracle that is life!

     

    The birds on the other hand were an absolute pleasure. Sunbirds, bee eaters, sparrows, cranes, seven sisters, drongos, sparrows, mynahs, cuckoos, robins, barbets and kingfishers have all been sighted by my untrained eyes! As I look down from my balcony, with my morning cup of tea, it is always a pleasure to witness the sun birds, merrily sucking the nectar from the bottle brushes! Petite and chirpy, they were adding wonderful sound effects to the visually colourful environment. The sparrows, as is their nature, love making homes in houses, in close proximity to humans. In a way fearless, as they search for a concrete nook or cranny to nest, they are an interestingly determined species. The first nest they made was in the hollow of the bit of the AC that protrudes outside. Eventually they laid their eggs, till another goon of a bird, a black one with yellow beak, a slender body and mean eyes, attacked its nest and maybe stole its eggs. How alarmingly similar their struggles for life are to our human race! This bitter experience hence, they desperately wanted to nest inside our home. Every time I would leave the balcony door open, these chirpies with grass and straw in their beaks would land up in my house, coyly stacking the strands against the space between the curtain rod and the pelmet. What a clever idea and an engineering marvel was what I thought observing their dedicated effort at layering dried grass against dried grass to make a villa for themselves, with security taken care of. Of course, I couldn’t leave my balcony open all day or invite these sparrows into my home like this, and I would invariably shake the curtain to upset the foundation of their future nests. Surprisingly, the sparrows never gave up and it has been more than 3 months and they haven’t yet given up. It is almost like a game for me to open the balcony as if to invite them, and with tireless resilience they keep getting dried fibres, and in a serious chirp of discussions start rebuilding again. I also wonder watching them and while playing this cruel game of man against a small puny bird, where in the line of evolution did humans lose this resilient and never say die spirit? Well, that is another story!

     

    Eventually, the monkeys arrived on campus last year. First they were three, a male, a female and a young one! Seemingly harmless, hopefully lost in their jumping from tree to tree, more like a tourist than an immigrant. The initial mistake we made on campus was to let them feed. Our dining hall staff would gladly offer them peels of vegetables and other wasted food. This made the monkeys wonder, whether they should leave this destination at all? Lots of high trees to swing on for little roger to play and grow, lots of food all around to feast on and lots of children all around, which made the environment safe and entertaining! What more could a monkey be ambitious about? Thus, the monkeys stayed on! Their family has now grown to a whopping eight, as a result of incestuous affairs! They are all around us, grating their teeth when we pass by, as a warning sign to others. Being an environment friendly campus, we just can’t think of what to do! We don’t want the forest officials to come and capture them in an unsure fate net. We don’t want to hurt them either and hence emails were floated regarding the behaviour of monkeys and the dos and don’ts if we are in close proximity. Guards would shoo them off from buildings and terraces and window sills by aiming native hand made rubber balls. My home seemed to attract the monkeys too. Once, when the balcony door was left invitingly open, while we were at work, the pack ventured boldly into our home, raided our kitchen, feasted on a few peeled potatoes and an open pack of lentils, some cough syrup (sadly not the Phenargan) and left when the guards noticed activity in our balcony and started making noise near our kitchen window. We were called back from mid work, and asked to keep our balcony doors locked all the time in future. The other time was when I was in the toilet and my wife and daughter having returned from a tiring day, were relaxing on the sofa with their backs to the balcony and of course a balcony with an open door. A risk taker of a monkey saw this opportunity more as a source of frolic than anything else. He first sat on the railing of the balcony, at which time, my one and a half year old daughter, babbled some words, which to her meant ‘MONKEY!’ but to my wife garbled letters of an infant. She continued reading her newspaper! The adventurous chimp soon landed himself inside on our dining table and then brazenly crept up right next to their sofa. By this time, my daughter’s incessant calls had made my wife take notice that something was right and to her utter shock turned her head to find the monkey seated on the floor right next to the sofa! From inside the toilet I heard a whole lot of shrieks and screams and screeches, which I couldn’t all decipher then, till I came out to find my wife making paper balls to throw at the monkey which amused, sat and observed my wife in her foolish act of scaring the monkey. One could almost notice the grin on the monkey’s face, when I decided to act. Armed with the rubber wiper from the toilet, and drawing forth my animal instincts, I ran out in a gorilla like frenzy, clenching my teeth, doing a few monkey jigs and jumps, screaming like an arrow had struck my chest, and holding the rubber wiper more like the trishul in the hand of Lord Shiva. The alpha male act worked its magic, however fits of laughter it generates in your mind as you visualize the scene, and ever since I can hear fearful chatter amongst the monkeys when I pass them by! If evolution were to work itself out in a matter of years, soon I will get cornered and attacked by these otherwise harmless creatures! Till then I can only shoo off the peering, innocent monkey eyes that belie the mischief they are capable of, from all my windows and balcony. I also thank god, that the legend of a leopard, rather a wild cat, the jackals, the foxes, the snakes and the mongooses, all live outside the walls of our campus, in the vast forests of the Aravalis. However, I can’t stop myself from always asking this question and feeling guilty with the honest answer that my mind throws back at me, ‘Whose home is it anyway?’

     

    TWIN TREASURES

    I am gifted with the twin treasures
    which give me joy in endless measure.
    One is called faith and the other hope,
    two words, that helped me cope
    with the disappointments of life.
     
    Faith - my loving wife, who's been with me
    through thick and thin, taken care of me.
    With her sixth sense, I've always been protected,
    and her care and patience healingly helped
    to drop every wound of the past and present.
     
    Hope - my endearing daughter, whose smile
    twinkles in me, keeping me far from being senile.
    Her unconditional love and sudden hugs and kisses,
    make me humble and grateful; my heart misses
    a beat, thinking of how fortunate I am !
     
    What could a man ask, further...
    than a trusting wife and a loving daughter?
    What can a man not achieve with the powers
    that can be drawn from these two treasures?
    In the material world I am simply lucky!
     
    What could a man ask, further...
    than a life of faith and a hope filled future?
    What can a man not achieve with the powers
    that can be drawn from these two treasures?
    In the spiritual world I am simply blessed!

    RAINBOW BEGINNINGS

    Delhi and Gurgaon had been sizzling in the heat as late as the first week of July with headlines in the newspapers ringing the bell of doom, in case the monsoons, which were delayed, never arrived! Hence, when the rains finally decided to shower, it was to everybody's relief. The first four five days, just had the clouds accumulating, much like a military positioning. Then we had a day of drizzles (almost like a trailer of what we all hoped would eventually arrive), followed by a few days of sweltering and humid heat. Till finally, came a day, when the air had gone still and heaps of dark rain clouds had blocked the sunlight! The humidity was at its peak and the low lying clouds pressurised not only the body to sweat more, but also weighed heavy on the mind, much like the end of a Ludlum thriller. Finally, last week, it poured. When heaven opened its floodgates, every bit of our city got washed in the downpour.
     
    Yesterday was one day when it really rained and I was lucky to be caught in the middle of it in the city! The clouds were thick and dark and had been gatering all morning. Around noon, they gave away and the showers drenched the city with abundant joy! Everyone was happy though, unlike other years when you find people looking irritated or grumbling at the rains and at the effect it has on our poor drainage systems. There were people merrily getting wet. One group of school boys, of course it is their age to enjoy the rains, were actually walking through the downpour as if nothing was happening differently than any other day. One could literally see them washing their body and mind in the pure heavenly water! Another young couple was actually out in their shorts and tees, jogging in the downpour. They were getting wet and muddy but loving every bit of the fun with all the wetness around. If you looked closely enough, you could also see the trees and plants all around you breathing huge sighs of relief. With a lowering water table, they would not have survived another harsh summer without this wet break in between. Even the dogs on the street were merrily playing in a puddle after the showers had stopped. When I reached home, my balcony view was spectacular. It was as if all the plants had gained a fresh lease of life, apart from looking squeaky clean! All the greenery around me looked splendid, vibrant, lush and gorgeous in its new attire. The plants which were wilting in the heat, stood up straight with pride and the ones which had shrunk to conserve water, now burst to freshness! When I looked at the sky, heaving and sighing out of relief after the tremendous downpour, with a few scattered clouds here and there, between the gap in the two buildings that faced me, I could see a crystal clear rainbow emerge. The sun was setting and in its last few minutes of warm rays, it shone colourfully through the moisture laden clouds, creating a mystic rainbow. The rainbow seemed to begin in the building in which I worked, which was lying overlapped behind the other two in sight. The rainbow royally arched outwards to the open sky, like a majestic signature of nature for its much needed and much awaited shower of mercy! All these sights and sounds and emotions churned something within me to write this. The metaphor that one can deduce from nature are often subtle, but true! I had been ignoring it all this time!
     
    The rainbow helped me realise the beginning I was making with some trepidation this academic year. An old boss was gone, a thorn removed from the throat! At the same time, the safety valve of the pressure cooker also got released. Which made the cooker, prone to bursting or heavy discharge of steam, not a safe place to be in! At the same time, a  new boss (an old colleague) was also taking the reins of the working place and it would be but fair to give her the chance to prove her honesty and integrity! Having suffered the machinations of colleagues who feigned masks of friendship, and having realised the helplessness of these human minds in the wrenching arms of insecurities and fear, I only wondered how I did not see the games earlier!  Maybe because I have no fear and am clear about the source of my income, not being my employers, but Life itself.When your trust is betrayed, not by the person directly but by the circumstances she has created taking full advantage of your goodness and your intelligence, you are caught in a room of mirrors, not knowing who to blame, as your image repeatedly haunts you as the culprit! However, when the Buddha's compassion swells forth, the common mortals fail to see the negative karma they have accrued through their clever moves, while I breathe a sigh of relief, knowing and feeling the ultimate protection of the truth and understanding the need for these persecutions, which have helped me grow! Thus, with a sense of relief and cautious footfall, I was gently and quietly moving in to the new working year, hoping that my wisdom stemmed from the fount of Buddhahood. When I stood in the balcony admiring the rainbow and noticing its origin, everything that my mind was helping me think and deal with, calming me and giving me peace, seemed to fall in place. I could even hear the proverbial click! The rainbow was an indication of my future, colourful and majestic in all nature's beauty, and interestingly originating from the building of my work! And at the same time, the arch was endless, unfathomable and its end limitless. The summer heat had been symbolic of all my struggles in the last year, and the brunt of all my honesty and transparency, and all the advantage people took of me! Every sweat was my self pity released, back into the environment, making me lighter and lighter. In the end, the rains had washed my soul clean, squeaky clean. The prayers I had so whole heartedly put in had accumulated realisations more than anything else...the knowledge that I was still on the right path of faith! The understanding that in the eternity of life, the machinations were like minor tremors or ants on an elephants' back, dawned upon me. The Buddha has nothing to prove, but it only manifests. Hence, one has to wait for the right moment and not plan circumstances  to prove how good one is! In the last three months, I have felt that protection in my workplace from a higher superior and comforted myself with the growing satisfaction and sense of security.
     
    However, just like a long summer, and thereafter waiting for the rains with hope, and then when it is delayed waiting for it with frustrations and finally humility and earnest prayer, followed by the actual soul quenching showers, I too have taken a similar journey in faith! One of conflicts and resulting disappointments, and then hoping for miracles, none of which happened, as my own attitudes were not in sync with my Buddha wisdom. Finally my earnest prayers, started collecting the clouds of comfort, exuberance and life's nourishment! The rainbow was the final piece in the puzzle of my journey in faith. As I make a fresh departure at my rainbow beginning, I am overwhelmed with gratitude towards nature and its omnipotence!